i am cracking all over the place

Yesterday I taught Scenes for Non-Actors. I was very different from last time I taught. I was different at work today too. I'm good at work, I realized. Work is easy. I was surprised to find myself different in class. I was stunned to find myself different at work.

I directed Shakespeare, Euripides, Chekhov early, the biggest plays I could see, because some part of me knew I was not long for scripted texts; that they would pour through me and be gone.

Now I wonder if theatre itself may be like those texts. I don't want this to be true. Perhaps the form will mutate, not vanish. I feel myself, like some tectonic plate, lifting skyward.